So Mommy has been having a tough time- they think maybe she got Lyme cutting the neighbor’s yard but nobody is really sure- she had to take lots of medicine and is starting to feel better but had lots of hard days the past month and still has some aches and pains. Mommy said she is willing herself to get better and is going to take very good care of herself so she can heal her body. So you know even when mommy didn’t feel good she wanted to go see me sooo much but can’t right now. She decided to replicate my memorial at home.
Mommy bought the same solar flowers and ordered another memorial stone just to have a special place for me until she can go visit me again at the memorial park. I mean mommy knows I’m always with her but since she’s had such a hard year I’ve been coming around a lot to give her love.
The night mommy finalized the proof for my new memorial stone I came in her dream – running into the bedroom smiling as a tripawd ready to snuggle up with her (I wasn’t a big snuggler but mommy loved it) and she was so happy she couldn’t believe it, but was sad she woke up so fast. So then I thought I probably need to show up for mommy twice as much.
So … mommy had just wrote to grandma that she didn’t know when my stone would come and as soon as she hit send on the email an email came through from the seller telling mommy the stone was shipped! A couple weeks later mommy woke up and the stone was there.
She went to take a nap and when she woke up she accidentally hit her phone and looked down and I had our song on her phone screen. Mommy laughed out loud- she said “of course you would Zuzu“- you know me mommy! I had to let you know that I love my new memorial! I’m always with you mommy. I know things are so hard right now but they are going to be so much better in time. I’m always here mommy always always you protector and guide mommy. You never have to worry about me going away because you are my special person and I’m your angel. I’m with you everyday- you gave me the best life mommy and I’m going to give you the best life too. I’m your ZuBear. Love you forever mommy!
This has been a really tough year for mommy, but it’s also shown her how much everyone loves her. A quick update- daddy is home and recovering well! He does physical therapy with mommy to practice walking just like I did. Mommy and my brothers had a birthday party for me last month! I turned 8.
Okay now for the ZuAngel Signs!
So mommy started to not feel good in March and then she started feeling better but has had some stuff with her allergies and neck that just hasn’t gone away so she called her doctor and they tried lots of stuff and then they said she needed to go get a CT Scan. Mommy was so worried because she didn’t want to get sick from this pandemic by going to the doctor. She was careful and went and did all the tests and was really worried since they couldn’t find anything right away and said she would have to wait for results.
As she started to drive out of the doctor’s parking lot the first song the radio switched to was one of my “get mommy’s attention” songs “Alright” as soon as it came on mommy started bawling because she knew I was telling her that she’s going to be alright. She had been wanting to hear from me, and it was the first time she’d gone anywhere in almost a month besides to pickup daddy. She just couldn’t believe the one time she had to leave the house and was scared that I immediately came through the radio. She called grandma and her friend who is like another mommy and they joked maybe she didn’t feel good just so she’d get in car so I could send her a message. I wouldn’t do that! Haha, but I will grab her attention when she does leave.
Oh, you thought I was done? Nope. So mommy always stays home to be with daddy, but today she had to go pickup doggy preventatives at the vet about 10 minutes away. She’s still not all better so she talked to her doctor again before she left and they are sending a new medicine they hope makes mommy all better. On the way home she was thinking how sunny and beautiful it was and how she wished she could just drive to my memorial an hour away and take my new flower lights and visit me. Then she was thinking if I played one of our songs on the radio that it would mean she’s going to get better from the new medicine… so by the time she got to the next stoplight about 10 seconds away she heard the radio announcer say the next artist was going to sing the national anthem at the NASCAR Darlington race and she was not expecting what happened next… um of course I made “Alright” play again. Mommy was smiling so big under her mask and then her eyes started to water; she sang the song making up her own lyrics about me. She called grandma to tell her I did it again and grandma was just stunned. Mommy has only left the house 4 times since the lockdown: 1 to get daddy, 1 to get gas for lawnmower and these two times- I mean I have to make it count since she will be home all year and doesn’t listen to the radio at home!
Love you Mommy- it’s still the year of ZUZU and it will get better!
My mommy has been needing me. My daddy was working in China and mommy got a call in America that he was in the hospital in critical condition. He had a cold that sparked an autoimmune response paralyzing him and putting him into a semi-conscious state. At first they did not know what was wrong. He had to be transferred to three hospitals and mommy was staying up overnight because of the time difference. They told her it was very serious and she must come at once. Mommy’s passport had expired and she didn’t have a visa. Everyone jumped into action her friends and family started helping and with the help of the consulate in China mommy got a visa in 30 minutes and passport same day- that is unheard of. Her friends came over to stay with my brothers and kitty sister and helped her pack and get all the paperwork together and got her to the airport immediately.
Mommy was so scared because she had been staying up coordinating daddy’s care over skype with translators and getting daddy’s U.S. insurance onboard to see about getting medical flight to the United States; it was all so overwhelming for her how daddy could go from just having a cold to not being able to move, speak, or open his eyes and having life threatening complications.
Mommy will tell you later but there were TONS of mini miracles that just made everything fall into place wink wink. The day mommy went to Washington DC to get her passport and visa she wore my nose print necklace and a sweater daddy got her in South America. When she started packing for China she thought about bringing her Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle shirt she use to let me wear when I had therapy. She almost packed it, but then put it back thinking how sad she would be if it got lost…
Well as soon as mommy came back from her first visit with daddy in China I made sure this popped up on her timeline- yep me in the ninja turtle t-shirt at water therapy. I am with you mommy and daddy and I’m gonna help daddy get through his therapy. I am with you every moment and you may not have brought that shirt, but I brought me to you in that shirt so you know I’m always by your side. You do not have to worry mommy! Daddy is going to get better so fast! I will help you bring him home and stay with him in the hospital when you can’t.
So mommy declared that 2020 is the year of Zeus on her facebook. She talked about being magical like me and making the most of every day. Well today I knew my friend, my water therapist, was hurting. She has been really sad and today is her mommy’s birthday who is also in heaven (but my mommy didn’t know any of this). The last time mommy saw her was the day before I left my earth body a couple years ago. So I had to find a way to get to her to make her happy! So I’ll let mommy tell you what happened:
First instance of Zuzu magic in 2020 – If you like happy signs from beyond read on Today I was looking for a dry cleaner and saw one that was a little far, but had great reviews and I recognized the name of the city. As I got close I realized it looked familiar. I made a wrong turn and there was a HUGE sign that said “Animal adoptions HERE with an arrow pointing to a shelter.” Then I saw some very familiar landmarks and realized I was on the exact route to where Zeus went to water therapy after his leg amputation. With the cleaners literally 1.5 miles down the same road I decided maybe this was a sign I should drop in to say “Hi” to Zeus’ water therapist Jenn. We hadn’t seen each other in over 2 years since the day before he passed. Jenn and Zeus had a really special bond and she helped him overcome his anxiety and even saw him when he was too sick to do therapy for “treat time.”
I walked in hoping she was there and heard Darius Rucker playing on the radio “I only wanna be with you” (from Hootie & the Blowfish), who is significant to me pertaining to Zeus as I dreamt of one of his songs the night Zeus passed and woke up and pulled it up and the video is of an area identical to where I took Zeus on his boat ride the day he passed and was titled “My Comeback Song”. The front desk staff found her and we were both almost in tears as she told me today is a really significant, but sad day for her and she was literally just telling her coworker that the past couple of days had been so hard and she needed some good things to happen and then boom Zeus sent me to come say, “Hi.” *Zeus has also done this for another friend of mine where her mom was very ill 🙂
I continue to be AMAZED at what our sweet Zeus does to not only comfort me, but all the people who he loved so dearly and were part of his journey. They truly are never gone. Zeus you certainly brought us together today and brightened your friend’s day. xoxoxo
So Mommy has been soooo busy and daddy is teaching abroad so mommy has her hands full with all of my brothers and kitty sister. She also got really really sick, but she’s much better now. So much has happened, but I’ll start with mommy and Jasper’s last visit. They came up to see me at the memorial park. Mommy says those are the best days- coming with Jasper and cleaning my memorial, talking to me, walking in the beautiful park, and then she takes Jasper to get ice cream! They brought me my fall glass pumpkin and a new holiday wreath- mommy always decorates a new one for me every year; it’s our special thing.
This year is my baby brother Bruno’s first holiday season with us. Last year his family took him to the shelter where he had to stay during Christmas and the New Year. I know what it’s like to be sad and scared in the shelter so I’m really happy he gets to be part of our family. I know it was really hard for mommy to adopt again, she said she wouldn’t do it for a long time and had no plans to, but I felt like two years was a good amount of time and I wanted mommy to smile and laugh again with another pup and for another doggy to get to have a great life like I did. I kinda had to sneak him into her heart. I just made everything align for him to end up with us- even when mommy said he was just a foster and she absolutely wasn’t adopting him LOL sure mommy, sure. Bruno is a baby goofball and mommy I think has an inkling I sent him. Even though he can be mischievous, it’s in a funny way and mommy says she cannot imagine not having him in the family. Mommy has been doing lots of special things with him to make his first year end with lots of fun. She took him to a holiday light show doggies were allowed to go to and he even got photos with Santa!
And of course I couldn’t let Christmas go by without sending mommy an angel sign. She ended up going to her friends house on Christmas after they had dinner at a restaurant because her friend forgot my brother and sister’s gifts. When mommy got there her friend said she also had some left over food and toy grab bags from an event mommy could have for my brothers. The next day when mommy was going through the items she saw a unicorn toy that reminded her of the dino/unicorn toy my physical therapist gave me that I loved! Daddy picked that toy as his special treasure to bury with me.
But of course I wasn’t done. You know how mommy is she always needs like lots of confirmation signs so I knew just what would get her attention (it works with Santa too)… cookies! Mommy LOVES these cookies that she found one time at Costco. She kept searching everywhere for them all year and finally gave up. She couldn’t remember the name and they seemed to not carry them anymore at Costco. So she went to buy my brothers their green beans and… yeah you already know – there was a bag of the cookies sitting in the green bean boxes. Mommy stopped in her tracks. She was shocked that these specific cookies were sitting there staring at her in the box of the one item she came to buy for my brothers. She smiled and instantly knew it was her Zuzu. I mean you have to get creative from the otherside with sending your mommy cookies at Christmas! She picked them up and immediately put them in the cart, but then put them back just to take a photo to remember the special moment. To some it may seem silly or coincidence, but mommy knows the difference and I know how to catch her attention. Love you mommy!